Pretending

aiya just feel like blogging about you since i'm bored too, and just write down my thoughts. it's been about 7 months since we ended, and since that day i've been waiting and waiting, been hurt too much, love too much and for the first time in my life learned many things, and wanted to change myself to be a better person. i can say that i went through so much things, too much.. but i'll keep that as yesterday's memories, no point digging back and saying out what hurts, because i don't think i'll be able to handle a second round. but through it all, i manage to survive, our relationship still survived.. i don't know what i'm suppose to do now. i can say i'm happy, we spend time together and all, but we think too much about the future, i know that we're suppose to, but why don't we just forget all those and just give it another try? if i really go, do you really think that it won't hurt if we stay like this. you told me that i didn't have confidence in our relationship, but i think that i'm not the only one. i don't have much words to write down, i don't know how to write down everything i feel and what i've been through. let's just give it another try, and let fate decide ok? you know how much i love you, never even loved anyone this long before, you know how much i sacrifice just for your happiness. :,)

ok random picture cause i'm so lazy to go to fb and take other pictures! :( yesterday went to aunt's house for reunion, and karaoke all the way till 1 i think. HAHA. ok later going to dad's side of the family for reunion.... i just want get money, can we skip all the visiting? ty. can't wait to get back to singapore. gonna use the money wisely this time! want go get credit card...