we're going hard

 it's almost 1 now. i wasted today sleeping and went town for awhile just now. i'm getting more and more sick, it's been like 3 weeks? i think it's time for me to see a doctor. hmm. just chiong finish english essay, finally forced myself to do school work if not teacher confirm complain to my parents again. very annoying. hating school teachers more and more. despise them so much. at least next week it's holiday. finally. on my bed now listening to the usual 91.3 and waiting for kelvin to call. Recalling back what i've been doing for the past few days since my last post. hmmm. i really can't remember actually. have been going down town everyday as usual and rot at cine most of my time which is very boring. but there's nothing better to do also. arcade pool slack talk nonsense. -.- blogging it out also make me yawn. Friday since my parents going to bring us back to indo and then bali for holiday. yeepee. bali is the only place in indonesia that i enjoy. can't wait. will be going on 16 and coming back on 22nd. tell me what i should do for christmas and new year. where should i ton. any house parties? hmmmm. we'll see how it goes then. too lazy to post pictures on blog. everything is on fb.

going to dedicate this post to ahting. it's been a long time since i dedicated any post and when she read this you better be honored ok bitch!! was happy that we finally get to go out instead of our usual hi and byes when we see each other outside. i know sometimes you think i very irritated cause you keep talking about him* but actually i just want you to be happy. it sucks to see you like this. but i know one day you'll be strong enough to finally move on. you deserve better. Even though no guy catches your eye at the moment, one day someone will ok? those were yesterday's pain, look forward to the future and things ahead for you. known you for a few years already. from strangers to suddenly best friends and then back to strangers but now at least we're close. it's good enough for me :,) in a few more days it'll be your birthday! remember last year? haha. your chalet. we two acted damn retarded run around and cried. but it was sweet wasn't it? even though we emberassed ourselves, those memories were meaningful and no one can ever replace that. i'm sorry this year i can't celebrate with you because i'll be overseas but i hope you'll have a good time with your friends ok? you deserve to be happy that day. i don't know how to say or express it. but i still care and love you alot. even though we went through some shit and hatred towards each other for some time in the past but we put that aside. i'm sorry for hurting you and neglecting you before. but now i really do care for you more than before and thank you for putting me as one of your top sisters still, even if you have other people now. really feel happy and appreciate it a lot. even though we cannot be best friends anymore or what. i just want to say that we still have lots of memories and past together. now you grown up a lot. happy to see you like that. compared to last time when we always have problems with people, fights or what. you changed alot.  finally know to think. proud of you ok? i love you sis. you're still one of the most important person in my life. miss all those sleepovers and nonsense. <3. you're beautiful ok, you just need more confidence dear.i hope you're touched when you see this!